As expected, we didn't meet up. As much as I had expected this... (hope for the best. expect the worst) I was not prepared for the emotional roller coster I felt then. It was simply sooo painful.
I cried and cried and cried. I cried soooo hard that my heart hurt. It was the hurt and the sadness that made the tears just flow freely. I've never felt soooo sad abt the whole thing as I did last night.
I am not sure why I cried? Was it the fact that he didn't call/msg to tell me that he can't make it. or was it the fact that I felt he see no importance to have this resolved!?
I mean if he does not care for me... why doesn't he just help me with this process of healing. I simply do not understand why is he procrastinating the whole thing if he doesn't care anymore.
I don't understand! Simply do not understand.

Me : After soooo many yrs, you are still capable of making me cry. WHY?!